Sometimes you have experiences that make you feel confident, and may even puff you up a little. Like when the sound guy says, "We need to end sound check now because there's a line of people out the door waiting to get in for your show." Or, when someone asks you for an autographed picture because they think you're worth something...(or at least your handwriting!)
Then, there are experiences that are completely humbling.... Like when someone asks you, "Are you making a living off of music alone?" and you say, "No, I can't live completely off of music yet," and they say, "Oh, so it's still a hobby for you."
Or, when you record vocals on a new song and the sound engineer says, "Wow, that was WAY better than when we recorded your last song!"
Or, when you play for tips, and there's no one there...
In this pic, Billy and I are playing at a frozen yogurt place, serenading....no one.
Or, when people are there, but you only make $2...from your friend.
In this pic, the ladies of my band were playing at the mall, hoping to make enough tips to pay for our next music video. We made $2.
You'll be glad to know that the ladies and I came back to the mall to play another show the next day, and ended up making enough money to pay for our gas to our next out-of-town show. (This Saturday 9/6 in Birmingham, AL!!!!)
Although there are the bad humbling experiences, there are also the good humbling experiences. The ones where God opens a door for you that you know you don't deserve and couldn't earn with your own strength. And these are the humbling experiences that keep me going.
Sometimes I think I'm crazy. But sometimes, I think I know exactly what I'm doing.